There is an episode of Grey’s Anatomy where in the midst of a meltdown, Chandra Wilson’s character says, through heaving sobs and thick anger, “Of course I’m scared. If you’re not scared, you’re not paying attention!”
I’ve wanted to mimic her multiple times this week. To just yell at whoever will listen “Of course I am scared. If you’re not scared, you’re not paying attention!”
Not paying attention to the pain. Not paying attention to the death. Not paying attention to the loss and devastation. Not sitting in wide eyed wonder, perplexing over how so much could have changed in a mere 8 days. Not fearful of the ramifications. Not scared about how life will go on.
Beth Moore has this brilliant YouTube video where she talks about something her daughter said in a Doctors office waiting room one day. You can watch it here ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NK9kZKK8LNs ) or you can just skip to my point.
One of the Moore girls said, “He knows it’s scary to be us.”
If that doesn’t just rock you to sleep I don’t know what will.
Here is what I do know: In the midst of a world where we all have weeks where we want to yell “OF COURSE I’M SCARED!”. In a world where where it is scary to be us and God knows it is scary to be us, He offers these words…
“The Lord is in your midst, a Mighty One who will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you by His love; He will exalt over you with loud singing.” Zephaniah 3:17
“Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6
“Have you not known? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not grow faint of weary; His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might He increases His strength. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall month up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not be faint.” Isaiah 40″28-31
“Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours but God’s.” 2 Chronicles 20:15
Sometimes in my mind I rewrite that Chronicles verse.
“Do not be afraid or discouraged because of…how scary it is to be us (fill-in-the-blank with whatever leaves you afraid and discouraged). For the battle is not yours but the Lords.”
He knows it’s scary to be you.